Have you looked behind the sofa?

oh yeah, i remember, in school when i was 12 years old, a teacher told me “no holding hands because that’s immoral” and walked away.

that’s a ponzi scheme.

You have depression so you have 3-4 children to take care of. Then these children have depression again, again needing to have 3-4 children each to have some fun again. In the end, after 5 generations, you end up with 300 grand-grand-grand-grandchildren, and there is no more space, and they are stuck, and have to live with their depression.

Congratulations, you just multiplied your depression by about 300.

If you want my honest opinion, listen to what your feelings tell you. Don’t let people tell you what is “right” or “wrong”, as these are often meaningless concepts in relationships. Be responsible, but also: be happy.

I thought you were going to say

As a videogames programmer, it is natural to me to consider myself as a character in some video game.

but it beats working 12h a day in the field to feed my familiy.

btw, people didn’t work 12 h a day in the field

the long work days are a result of capitalism. yes, progress has increased average work hours, instead of decreasing them.